自我催眠

Title: 自我催眠

人群里面那个我 把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口 我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵 听不见你说
爱就在此刻 松手分手放手

我猜不透 不猜透 和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有 没有爱情的天分 你才要走

我想要学会自我催眠 痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟 想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间 寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠 却回不到从前

等着红灯那个我 还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着 在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着 却静静沉默
在我们之间 爱了放了散了

我会不说 不想说 怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默 只是掩饰着心痛 我的难过

我想要学会自我催眠 痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟 想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间 寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠 却回不到从前

我想要学会自我催眠 聪明在多一些
潜意识作祟 想着想到失眠
我走在没有你的世界 却走不到永远
我渐渐的自我催眠 慢慢闭上双眼

Cuppage... Pool

In Progress...

Goblet of Fire..!

Thursday night...

The whole week was pretty much the same except for tonight cos Ivan and me decided to catch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today... Hmm, rare chance I would say.

We booked tickets for the 8.50pm show at Bishan... It was still early after work as we headed for dinner at Scotts Foodcourt. After dinner, Ivan pampered himself with ice-cream from Häagen-Dazs. =Þ Did some window shopping at Taka and Wisma... went to Zara where he showed me a cool jacket priced at $675, Guess, Topman and finally Flesh Imp where Ivan bought a jeans... Best part was when the sales girl asked if he was above 18 years old... hee hee, that would make my day man... Bumped into a good old friend Bang Zhen and chat for a while, coincidentally I just sent him a Birthday Card the day before, which he received on Saturday (26 Nov 2005) and msged me that he was touched... ha ha. Too bad there weren't enough time to do shopping... and had to leave for Bishan at around 8.15pm...

The movie was fantastic as I always liked withcraft, wizardry magical stuffs... It lasted for about 2 1/2 hours... although not all the scenes were interesting, it was peppered with comedy... and small surprises in two of the 'darker' characters... Hmm, lost? Ha ha... Anyway, the movie got better as the plot unfolds.

Great night... =)

Yummy =)

Doing some back post for the past week events... Couldn't really find the mood and time to blog, or should I say I was too lethargic for the past few days...

It has been quite a while since I attended church... the last time being the week I went for my reservists. An urge welling inside me was telling me I must attend today's service... Somehow, my habit of joking about Lucifer since the day I watched "Excorcism of Emily Rose" doesn't seems that funny anymore... getting more devilish and must contain it before losing control. Ha ha.

During the service, Ivan msged me and asked if I was there... scolded me douche and jio me for dinner with his parents. First time I talked to him at Trinity when he came up to the balcony seats and find me. His parents drove us to a Japanese Restaurant along Thomson Road. Felt abit paiseh... because the dishes he ordered were mostly chicken cos I dun/seldom eat red meat... Anyway, the meal was really great. Thank you =) And we went for dessert at a French Restaurant... forgot the name of the shop but it serves excellent crepe. Really had a wonderful night and dinner. =D

Yummy, Chocolate with Almonds...

Sunday was comparatively short compared to other weekends... Most of the time were spent playing games... Went to a Salon to dye my hair in the afternoon. =Þ

Why look so sianz..?

Kaya Toast ..!

Reached home around 7pm... was tired but still went out to Orchard to buy something... took a cab there as I just missed the bus and was too lazy to take the MRT. Orchard road was brightly lit with the christmas lightings and decorations... Man, Christmas (my favourite holiday) is coming... always anticipating the love and fun for this festive season. Time to do some shopping, ha ha. Throughout the ride, I Had an interesting chat with the taxi driver. =)

Was on the way home when I bumped into Kelvin on the train... actually he saw me first. Hee hee. We went for a drink at Toa Payoh and I had my favourite Kaya Toast and Ice-Milo =Þ

The Exorcism of Emily Rose

"One, two, three, four, five, SIX!"... Went to watch "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" with one of my colleague today. Honestly, speaking, I've never like to watch horror movies in cinema cos I'm scared. Ha ha, I just feel that its a waste of money... to spend money to scare myself. However, I sort of enjoyed this movie... Its not bad. =)

Went for a drink at NYDC after the movie before we call it a day...

"Z....."

Today is the first day since weeks that I never played a single match of dotA... spent most part of the day 'recuperating' and settling my computer, somehow I got a feeling its going to desert me soon... Ha ha. Was listening to some songs of a different genre recommended by a friend, some rock music by 'Green Day', 'Simple Plan' and 'My Chemical Romance'... Just wish to be different today... stopped looping the only song on my player and load all my audio files into the library for it to shuffle... msg 'hi' to a few of my friends whom I've haven't seen for quite some time...

There is this freaking chio and sweet ger working at Toa Payoh Cd-Rama... Petite, tan with jet black long hair behind the counter... First saw her on 22nd October after my first book-out during my first week reservists when I went to purchase Jay's new album Pre-sale voucher. Since then, I have been finding myself making frequent trips there on weekend nights. However, today I saw her at Popular instead... Haiz, too bad her name tag was covered by her hair, only managed to catch a glimpse of the first letter, "Z"...

Have to work tomorrow again... Hmm... o.O

Long Week... Korean Cuisine

Thursday

Feeling abit sian and boring after work, but I was glad that I met up with Kelvin and Tess for a drink at Coffe Club after work while they are discussing some 'serious' stuffs... Took a walk around Orchard area, shopping for some stuffs, and played arcade at Toa Payoh for a while before heading home.

Friday

Finally the end of the week. This week seems to be unusally long due to the 'string' of holidays the week before making this week seemingly long... Or perhaps there are other reasons which I shall not list out here. Went for dinner with Ivan at Cuppage's Food Court and had a short pool session there. Played a total of 8 games... Ha ha, your pool has improved alot, think very soon you qie me already. Somehow, I really enjoyed to break the ball... makes me feel good and is a good source to vent my energy, ha ha. =)

Was online at home at night when Yvonne msged me. Ha ha, its been a long time since you last disturbed me, hee hee... But it was nice to hear from you and was actually happy when I found out that Rick was using my name to crap when trying to 'siam' you... cos it feels good to be remembered... Ha ha =Þ

Something interesting that caught my eye when I was in the server room... guess what its for. =Þ

Hmm... shit on my blog. Ha ha.

Saturday

It has been a long time since I spent my Saturday like today... really enjoyed doing what I like. =) Was at home when Domenic jio me out. We met 4.30 pm at Funan. I took a cab down and it was only when the driver reached Yio Chu Kang then did I realize he got the destination wrong. He thought I wanted to go Woodlands... (Hmm, does Woodlands and Funan sounds similiar? Maybe my pronunciation wasn't that clear)

We walked around the area scouting for toys... Ha ha, just realize he is also a avid toy collector... He enjoyed collecting figurines of comic characters whereas I'm a transformer fanatic. However, our aim of going to Funan was to recce for iPod Nano and iPod Video. Personally preferred iPod Nano as its more sleek and compact but he keep persuading me to buy iPod video together with him... ha ha. Was walking around and bumped into my boss, and he was eager to show his son to me. Made our trip down to Sim Lim Square to look for games before we decided to have dinner at Taka...

I was kinda expecting a queue when we reached Crystal Jade Korean Cuisine at Taka since its a weekend night. True enough, we had to wait for 20 minutes so I suggested going for my favourite $1 ice-cream. =Þ Was queuing for the ice-cream when a caucasian lady with her kid was trying to cut my queue. Usually I cant be bothered or would be kind enough to let them cut my queue... However, I skipped my lunch and a hungry man is an angry man... worst still, she stepped on my shoes while trying to force her way in pissing me off. Without hestitation, I made a comment on how I HATE people who cut queue and asked her NOT to STEP on my shoes. Well, it caught her by surprise and attention from the passers-by. Hmm... o.0

The Korean food was bbq style... though pricey, the food was great especially the marinated chicken fillet. Yummy! =D Furthermore, they provided free refill of the side dishes. Somehow got used to the taste of kimchi and learnt from Domenic that there are actually more than 200 types of kimchi. Really enjoyed the dinner... felt like sleeping after it... Ha ha... =)

枫...

Many things in my mind that I wish to write out... personal problems and thoughts, stuffs that all my friends told me, comments that I wish to let people know... However, its not appropriate to write them out and there's no one or venue to vent these accumulated stuffs... Haiz, ha ha.

Trouble has been brewing since the day I've started work... I've learnt quite a deal of stuffs and learnt to be mature in several ways. Still, I realize that I don't like working in an office environment where I'm cramped in a place or cubicle and having to deal with people... Also, some colleagues (I wouldn't classify them as friends as yet) blamed me for being too passive when dealing with people. Although its true, but I enjoy who I am and I hope they grant me the freedom to be who I am and do not blame me for not behaving the way they want. Each individual is different and unique in his/her own way... If you treat someone as a friend, then there must exists the element of friendship... then I'm sure the ability to accomodate each other's habits is a reason good enough for accepting each other's personality... I dun go around asking people to change and I'm sure most people do not do that too... unless its for their own good. I admit that I am bias and treats only my closer friends better and that's what I enjoy doing... but who doesn't? Ha ha... haiz...

Really looking forward to the next holiday to take a break, a break from work, a break from the routine life, a break from everything... I think a vacation after the whole project would be great... somewhere where I can really relax and enjoy. Hee. =Þ

Totally in love with this song, so beautiful and poetic...

Title: 枫

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度 的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱想成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度 的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱想成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

Life has been the same day in day out, even with the string of holidays, life has been practically the same with the usual routine of activities.

Read a journal of a close fren of mine and realize the stuffs that she has been going through for the past few days... So sorry that I couldn't be there. I just hope that you can get over it soon and there's really no point to be bothered by him. Ha ha... yup, I read your journal okay, dun blame me for always not reading your blog. =) I would like to quote a sentence from her that I wish to share with all of you. "... Never take advantage of a person's trust in you. Once broken, it is difficult to mend. With trust issues, there is hardly room for regret and mistakes. Do you agree? ... "

It was around 10 plus when Ivan msged me and jio me for supper. Ha ha, he once said it in uni yr3 but I guessed this is the first time we went out for supper. He drove me to Thomson and we had prata there. I had my Dinosaur and he ordered Tea Chino... Ha ha... =Þ Its been a while since we hang out and chat and I predicted that for tonight's match, Man Utd will win Chelsea. Hope my prediction is wrong though... =)

Have to work tomorrow again... Haiz...

Movie...?

Just another day that passed... I guess its time to make a decision.

Domenic called and jio me for a movie... 11.55pm at Yishun 10. Reached at about 11.30pm for a 11.55pm show. When I reached, I was stun by the sight of ABNN. They were everywhere, blending into the silhouette of the night... I've long forgotten that they've started screening Tamil shows... Its been a long time since I come to Yishun. A familiar place that has somehow become alien to me... a place where I've spent some of my most interesting 4 years there. Nothing much has changed though...

I waited at the BK at Yishun 10 only to realize I was totally dua by Domenic... Ha ha, Called him several times but no reply. Finally when he returned the call, it was already around 12.30 am... He fell asleep and did not hear the 9 missed calls. But anyway, even if he came on time, we wouldn't have been able to watch the show too, cos the timing was at 11.35pm. Ha ha...

Well, he asked us to hang around while he make his way down and treat us for supper as an apology. Went for supper, chat and chill out before he send me home... Eh, looking forward to go Malaysia for some shopping... remember to jio me...! =Þ

Wow, its already 3 plus in the morning... must go and sleep soon cos gonna have game in the morning. Looking forward to tomorrow dotA. Ha ha. =)

Here's the lyrics of a song that I really like.

Title: 黑色毛衣

一件黑色毛衣 两个人的回忆

雨过之后更难忘记 忘记我还爱你

你不用在意 流泪也只想刚好合意

我早已经待在谷底

我知道不能再留住你 也知道不能没有孤寂

感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽

看着那白色的蜻蜓 在空中忘了前进

还能不能重新编织 脑海中起毛球的记忆

再说我爱你 可能雨也不会停

黑色毛衣 藏在那里

就让回忆永远停在那里

看着那白色的蜻蜓 在空中忘了前进
还能不能重新编织 脑海中起毛球的记忆

再说我爱你 可能雨也不会停
黑色毛衣 藏在那里
就让回忆永远停在那里

November's Chopin

Suppose to go for accupuncture today, however, as I reached the clinic... the doctor was away for an urgent overseas trip... had to make an appointment next week... Though I had to postpone my treatment, somehow I'm glad to be spared from those 'needles', ha ha. =) Had breakfast with my parents and accompanied them to the market... Man, its been a long time since I last went to the market with them...

Went to Bugis to meet up with Kelvin in the afternoon... Had lunch there before proceeding to his company. Bought myself a plan before I head back home.

On the way home, picked up Jay's new album at CD-Rama. This album is simply fantastic... and generally all the songs are nice.

1） 夜曲
2） 蓝色风暴
3） 发如雪
4） 黑色毛衣
5） 四面楚歌
6） 风
7） 浪漫手机
8） 逆鳞
9） 麦芽糖
10） 珊瑚海
11） 飘移
12） 一路向北

Falling Sick...

Had been suffering from running nose for the past few days... throat feeling funny and nose bled today. Its terrible to go for training with a running nose... Haiz, hope that the coming week will get better...

Was driving the scout jeep inside the camp area to transport stores... saw several different groups of friends from the rifle companies along the way... they waved and smile at me making me feel like a VIP... A mixture of feelings started to dwell inside me. This ICT somehow started to make me ponder about some stuffs in my life... I asked myself what I'm best at and I dun think I excel in any thing. The only thing that I'm good at and enjoy doing is to treat people nice... That's also how I got to know those people... I've always enjoyed helping people but living in this society does not allow me to do full-time volunteer work... But I guessed I can start somewhere by contributing my Sunday.

So lonely back in camp and there's no way I can go online in a primitive camp... although some of my platoon mates were surprisingly nice to me during this in-camp in ways I never expected. Reason I dont know why.... but, there's not really someone whom I can click to... Went to library having intention to borrow another book to read. Lin Ern recommended me a book, 'Angels and Demons' by Dan Brown... however, it was not available, made a reservation for the book and realize I'm listed 71 out of 41 books in national library... Wow, seems like this book is' hot'... ha ha. Another friend recommened me a book titled 'False Memory' but I couldn't find it too... Ended up borrowing 'Odd Thomas' by Koontz Dean... Hopefully it can help me kill time and loneliness... ha ha.

Collected the ash of my cremated hamster placed in an urn...

Was listening to some of the new albums that I bought and songs that I had recently... and came upon a song '暧昧' by 杨丞琳... Quite a nice song with a sad but nice melody... Well, no harm recommending a nice song to you all... =)

Time to book-in...

Gay Camp... Week 1...

17th October 2005, woke up at 5.30am for which I slept only for 4 hours. Slept at 1.30am the previous night to pack my barangs barangs for my reservists [17th October to 28th October 2005]

Day 1: Love My Nation

Day of admin and drawing stores... Tinge of sadness and sianz was in my head as I booked-in for my reservists. There's so much work to be done back in office and yet I've had to be recalled for a 2 weeks high key in-camp training.

Was driving along Pioneer road for my Jeep Orientation drive when it started to drizzle... Picture of my commander while making rounds inside the camp.

Day 2: Here We Go Again...

Route March around the perimeter of the camp... supposedly to be a 3km route march but somehow the distance seems very short and ended very fast... think the CO CMI... Bwahahaha...

Day 3: Leave!

Book out the night before and went to celebrate Seng Boon's Birthday at Jurong Point's Swensen. Each of us ordered an ice-cream before heading to the arcade to kill time...

Finally a civilian day after 2 days of in-camp... ha ha. Went back to office to 'pia' my work... Too sianz to write in details the activities for the past few days...

Day 4: CMI

Practically a day wasted... Had IPPT in the morning and slacked till lunch time. After lunch was followed by some stupid / wayang lectures in one of the LT. The lecture was supposedly some doctrine required to be known by all Army personnel.

Sian, came to realize that I had a PC that is Hum Chee and CMI...! Hmm.. "Facilitate to make allowance to let people book out"...!? Since when is Army schedule planned efficiently? All trainings seem important... so when are the days/time to book out? At night or weekends? Haiz, guess nothing will worked out when its planned by brainless freaks...

Day 5: Rigging

Life is so boring and dull in camp... I feel like I'm practically wasting my life for the past few days... for example wasting hours at Training sheds or company line waiting for trainings. And during break time or rest time, there is nothing to do except to crap with my platoon mates or to find a spot where I can start 'stoning'... so unconstructive =( Really miss my civilian life, buddy, family and other close friends and of course... my computer. Ha ha...

After a lousy breakfast of chicken pao, the company went for LOAC and ROE scenario based discussion which lasted till lunch. After lunch, we had another round of LOAC and ROE drills, this time round in Skeleton Battle Order, blanks and friendly forces as enemy enacting different scenarios. It was fun to observe and participate in the scenarios... especially when performing negotiation with the 'enemy'. It was however tiring and physically draining to walk around the camp area as each team proceed to the different stations in the hot afternoon. Hopefully I will get a nice tan at the end of the two weeks... ha ha.

Today's training schedule can be considered to be one of the toughest. After the afternoon drills, Scout has to get ready for vehicle rigging training for next week heli-underslung. Had a tough time trying to prepare the jeep and bike for rigging securing all the loose parts... By the time the training ended, it was already 8.30pm...

Some of us bought food from the Spec Mess before turning in for the night... Long day, Armageddon out!

Day 6: Book-out Day!

Didn't sleep well the night before... kept waking up for at least 5 times... felt that I was burning and the room was stuffy and hot. Guess it must the afternoon on friday that I had too much sun... luckily didn't tio heat stroke/exhaustion. Secondly it could be due to the training for today. Intravenous Infusion (IV). Argh, damn it! The thought of poking and being poked by a 14-g needle really freak me out... ha ha.

Booked-out... was in the cab trying to catch a wink... However, this particular cab-driver had some loose nuts that I had to keep awake in case he crash while driving. He was continuously fiddling and busy pressing the buttons in a rythmic sequence on his Cab Link machine throughout the whole trip, stopping only at junctions or when changing gears...

Reach home at about 3pm and begin playing dotA... it has been a long time since I played games... ha ha. Time really flies... Its about 7.20pm as I'm concluding this entry... Shall start enjoying again before I book in tomorrow night.

Skeleton Key

In Progress...

Da Vinci Code

In Progress

Debilitated...

Its 11.25pm... Just reached home...

Beat, exhausted, dead-tired... Cant feel my fingers as I typed this post. Just had a tennis session this evening with Guan Aik at Reuters Science Park. Man... is his stamina good...! I was totally exhausted after 45 mins but I continued playing, forcing myself, taking attention to each stroke and swing... It was a good game for the night and I can sense that he enjoyed tonight's game too =)

Back still aching and my limbs are numb, most probably gonna have cramps in my sleep tonight... It has been a long time since I played a 2 hours, singles tennis session. Went for a drink at one of the pubs along Tanjong Pagar. Once again, I drank beer on an empty stomache after sports... feeling that I cant hold liquor that well anymore... guess its time to train myself by drinking more...

Today was generally a good day... smooth sailing and enjoyable... gotta pick up my pace in my work though...

Hadn't had dinner yet... most probably going to skip it and head for my lovely bed... =D

Night Everyone... =)

完美的一天

*...When the fire stops burning...*

Quite alot of things to say but cant... Quite alot of things to blog but dont know where to start... Quite alot of things to do but keep procastinating...

Went to CD Rama and saw 孙燕姿 new album <<完美的一天>> and bought it... Below are the titles of the songs in this album. Support Original albums and local artiste... =)

Yeap, this pic is obtained from the internet, too lazy to scan Singapore's version...

1) 完美的一天

2) 眼泪成诗

3）隐形人

4）流浪地园

5）第一天

6）Honey Honey

7）心愿

8）另一张脸

9）梦不落

10）明天晴天

Happy Birthday Mum =)

Almost couldn't wake up this morning. Woke up at 7.30 am to make preparation to go to church. I agreed to join Kelvin and Yi Han to attend a service at a church, St Vincent De Paul along Yio Chu Kang Road... I went to YCK MRT station where he picked us up and drove us there.

This was my first time there and is the first time I went to a Catholic Church... The service is totally different from charismatic and protestants church. The service was more solemn and I could actually feel the tranquility and serenity within me. There were several proceduresto follow and the alter-boys looks really cute... Ha ha. The hymns/songs they used to sing praises is also very different.

We had breakfast at Toa Payoh's LJS after the service. After which I went to Mount Pleasant in the late morning to cremate my pet hamster. I was kinda sad... life gonna be lonely again back at home especially at night when nobody's around.

Initially had plan to meet Hao Xin for dinner since its been a while since we met up. However, I realize that today was my Mum's Birthday and had plans to go out for dinner tonight. Had to cancel the meeting with Hao Xin... Can sense that you are abit pissed... Really sorry for 'flying kite'. My family went out for dinner today and I thinked I ate too much... hee hee... yummy =)

A tiring and busy week... KTV on late Friday night, Tennis session on Saturday and Busy morning on Sunday. Din really have much time to rest... hopefully this week will not be so taxing.

Lastly, Happy Birthday Mum..! =)

Tribute to Ger Ger

08 October 2005...

A sad night... as I reached home, the living room was unusally silent. I was not greeted by the usual "grr grr" biting sound on the metal cage from my ger ger... the best hamster that I had that is... And I realize the fate of this cute pet that I had...*sob*

I had this hamster since JC year 2 second semester. It had accompany throughout these few years... To say I'm not sad is a lie... I would say its the cutest, cleverest and best hamster among those that I had kept.

Whenever it wanted attention, it would bite on the cage continuously until it caught my attention and I would take it out to let it run... Whenever it is hungry, it would keep biting a wooden pole from the previous hamster treat... Whenever the water runs out, it will keep licking the tube to produce the ball bearing sound. It knows how to create noises to catch my attention...

This is the only hamster that had connected with me... Whenever I'm home, it will run to the door to greet me... Whenever I carry it out, it has never bitten me instead it will lick my palm continuously... When I placed it near my face, it will always lick my nose... and I loved to rub its tummy and yet most of the times it will remain in that position and does not struggle... I'm going to miss it... :'(

Haiz.... so sad =(

Tennis, Dinner, Wine...

Tiring day... slept for less than 3 hours the night before. Had a KTV session and I reached home only at 5am, slept at around 6am and woke up at 8am...

Was slacking at home when Guan Aik called me late morning to ask me out for Tennis session this evening at Reuters Science Park. Although it has been a while since I last played tennis and I was quite stressed, but I was quite looking forward to it. =)

This is the second time I go down to Reuters Science Park and I really liked the place. The security bounded building has a majestic, gothic look along Science Park... yet poshly designed as you stepped inside. I reached at around 5pm and I realize the company that I was playing with... My boss and bigger bosses... Paul and his wife, Christopher and Antonio. We begin with a short warm-up session before playing doubles.

Christopher was really good in Tennis, so was Paul. Generally they were all better than me but I had a fun time playing with them... It was enjoyable and they were coaching me on how to improve my strokes and backhand swings. There was a period of time that I tire myself when I played singles with Antonio... Was taking a break for the night when Guan Aik asked me to play singles with him... I told him no more and he gave a shocking reply, "Huh! That's it...!?" Ha ha, and I agreed to play with him...

The game ended around 7pm... Took a quick shower at the gym's washroom before Guan Aik drove Paul and me in his new car to Christopher's house located at one of the Condominium opposite Tiong Bahru Plaza. The condo is quite large... a nice apartment decorated with several antiques, imported furnitures mostly from Indonesia... and several Antonio's drawings. Personally I think its a great place and the living room has a nice view... the only thing that is missing is a balcony.

Had some wine and light conversation with Chris and Paul while waiting for the dinner... I realize I cant drink on an empty stomache and especially after sports. I tend to gulp the fluid and gets tipsy very fast. After two cups I was already slouching in the sofa trying to maintain my consciousness. Was watching "The Weakest Link" and I was amazed at Paul and Christopher's knowledge, they gave most of the answers before the contestants and I would say they were correct 90% of the time.

Erika and Antonio prepared the dinner... I wouldn't say its Brazilian culinary... but the preparation and style of cooking followed their home town recipes. The food was simply fantastic... Everything was nice, especially the chicken. I'm not sure what spices were added and how it was marinated, but it taste extrememly great and Guan Aik said this is the first time he ate so much chicken.

They opened 5 bottles of wine in all, one white wine before the meal while we were waiting... and 4 bottles of red wine during and after the dinner. Christopher kept urging me to drink and I was already struggling... Several times he poured the wine for me and I told him I had enough, and he jokingly replied, "You better drink it else you'll stay back for detention class and I'll open another 5 bottles.." Ha ha... I think my face and eyes must be damn red as I caught Chris and Paul looking at me on several occasions, so paiseh.

Christopher is a really nice chap and I really enjoyed chatting with him... From their conversation, I've learnt a great deal of things, which also makes me realize that there's so much that I dun noe. Spent a great deal of time chatting with them after dinner... Although I was listening and observing them most of the time, I got to know them better.. their characters, hobbies, lifestyle and past-times. By 10 plus, I was already 'lost'... drifting several times as they were chatting... It was getting late and the alcohol in my blood was making me dopey. I think they noticed it and were talking about me at some point of time.

It was finally around 11 pm when Guan Aik decided to leave that I got the chance to leave with him. Really wished to be in bed right now, so tired and my body is aching from the tennis session... Shall end my post here. =)

Good Old Fren =)

My title of this post reminds of Winnie The Pooh. For those who watched their cartoons will come across these phrases "...Silly Old Bear..."and "... my Good Old Fren..." frequently.

Met up with Marilyn, my really good old friend since JC this evening, was suppose to meet her at 7pm but I was late as I totally lost tracked of my time while doing work in the office. Reached Somerset at 7.30 pm and we had dinner at Marche. We ordered Ham & Cheese Crepe, Salad, Rosti with Sour Cream and Pizza.

It has been a while since we met up and I really treasured the time we had. We spent bulk of the time sharing and updating each other what we had encountered for the past few months. Details of our conversation will not be stated as I'm sure she would prefer me to keep mum about it.

It somehow seemed silly to sit in Marche as the people grew lesser and lesser... thus we decided to leave Marche and take a stroll along Orchard. After strolling till the end of Orchard, we decided to hang out at BK at Far East for a drink. Time doesn't seem to be enough and flew by so fast. Tomorrow still have to work... have to go home early else I'll sure suffer in the office tomorrow. We left BK at around 11.30pm and shared a cab home.

Really glad to have known you as you have always provided me with different perspectives to different problems and most importantly... have always been there to give encouraging words when I'm down. Thank you! =)

Wonder when will be the next time we meet up...

Haiz, Black Monday...

Is happiness always short-lived? I guess that's pretty much depends on each individual and their expectations. What each person looks forward to and their demands... I was really wishing to be happy throughout the year...

Maybe I'm over senstitive or I'm simply too dumb to know what's going on. I seriously dun noe what I've done again...

Another sad event that happened today was a ger that liked me came to know the truth that I didn't like her and I was trying to minimize contact with her. Haiz, I did a mean thing on sunday night. I was sharing a cab with this ger and I chosed to sit in front leaving her at the back... Yes, she was damn pissed with me. Its indeed very bad of me to do that... but I also dun noe what came over me. What's done has already been done and no amount of regrets will make the situation better. I could have handled the situation better but I screwed it up. Haiz, why must such things happen!?

Today is a really bad day and I still have to face such stuffs again.

Haiz...

Happy Happy Birthday (In Progress)

Sunday
A day of joy and fun spiced with series of events and unexpected surprises... only to be spoilt

Sad September

A series of unhappy events seems to be popping up now and then... especially so in the recent weeks. So tired and exhausted that I really feel like setting upon a death curse upon myself on my birthday.

Too tired to elaborate what happened and had no wish to jot unhappy memories down into my blog. But ever been accused of something that you did not do or was not aware of..? and trying hard to salvage the situation when you are already depressed yet to no avail...? It don't feel good.

Tried as I may, I always prioritize my friends even before myself, giving the best that I could, be there for them, building the trust in the friendship, hoping for some appreciation...

Nobody asked me to do these stuffs!

Nobody...

Tried too hard..?

Yes.

No such people exists?

Well, I'm one example... Though its my character... but I guessed I deserve it when I suffer. Nobody's to be blamed except myself.

Haiz, So tired... shall try go and sleep... Sharing the lyrics of a song with a sad story that I really really liked...

Breaking my Heart

I’m on the floor
Counting one minute more
No one to break the silence

Staring into the night
All alone but that’s alright
It’s the feeling deep inside I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
Counting the words you’ve said
They linger in the shadows

Coming home late at night
Drunk again but that’s alright
It’s the look in your eyes I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Party World KTV / Harbour Front

Thursday

Went for KTV again... this time round with Ivan, Jia Lin and Claudia. Since both girls needed to attend classes till 10pm, we made reservation for a room around that time. Bro initially had some class outing today... but was cancelled due to poor attendance and douches flying kites. Well, at least now I have company for dinner at the Food Court in Scotts. =D We walked from Far East to Isetan to Taka... to Paragon and then to Heeren just to kill time and practically tire ourselves out before the singing. =S

The booking was 4 hours and we sang till 2am. It was enjoyable and fun getting to hear Jia Lin and Ivan sing. =) They are all so...so much better as compared to me. Ever heard of frogs croaking..? Well, that's me... ha ha... Must brush up my singing skills man. Before the 4 hours were up, I was already limping in the couch battling against the Z-Monster. Damn shaq... and we still have to work tomorrow... argh! Shared a cab back home... first to JL's then Claudia's house.

Friday

Boss on leave today. I was practically making trips the whole day to the server room trying to perform installation onto the new server. It was only near the end of the day did I realize that the harddisk space for the new server was only 10GB. =S

Very soon, it was lunch time. Francis wanted to get a Pool table for her new house... so we made a trip down to "Big" located at Harbour Front. As the name suggested, its a mega store selling wide variety of household stuffs ranging from appliances to furnitures and decorations for homes. Had lunch at the Food Court before heading back to office... If only everyday could be as slack as today, guess it would make working more enjoyable and fun. Ha ha =Þ No activities for the night as the past two days has totally drained us out. Had dinner at United Square, a drink at Coffee Bean (Junction 8) with my buddy before heading back home. =)

Met Kelvin at night cos he jio-ed me out for supper at around 10.45pm. He drove me to one of the hawker at Lorong 5... Chat for a while before heading home.

Here are some pics taken on friday... Thanks to Ivan and his pro camera. =D

Sunday

Its Mid-Autumn Festival today... but sadly, nobody to 'celebrate' and play lanterns with. Well, I'm getting too old for that too... =) Somehow, the day seems to be unexpectedly short... Played a few games of DotA with my buddy throughout the day =) ... before heading to my grandma's house in the evening.

So tired... not enough sleep since last week.

Can't Sleep

Its almost 5am as I'm writing this post... woke up once earlier... Tried to sleep but I just couldn't. Interruption of sleep for these 2 days is wearing me out.

Its been two years since Alvin left me (A very close friend whom Marilyn and me... miss dearly even till now...) Getting by the days without him were hard... especially those days when I had to concentrate on my studies and exams.

Somehow, the same feeling of loss has creeped backed into me. A very good friendship fortified for more than two years was screwed by me. A friendship where we can talk about everything, a friend whom I used to chat online every night, someone whom I can act and share my thoughts freely is not there and too tired to care anymore. All these due to my pettiness... coming to realize and reminded of what Marilyn has once told me before... "The higher the expectations, the greater the dissapointment"... Well, I guessed I had too much expectations that I was controlling too much. I've learnt a huge lesson this time... just hope things will get better...

I dun ask for anything now... except 'Sleep'... so tired but just can't sleep...

Party World KTV

Got back very very early this morning... Reached home at about 5.50am after a 4 hours KTV session at Party World KTV Orchard.

Friday

1 week has passed since the official implementation date of the project. The hours spent in the office during the day was generally the same composing of frequent breaks, chatting, printing and of course... WORKING. Ivan brought some chocolate dipped strawberries to offer the gers in DBS. Friday is always a great day and is generally more relax (well, at least I feel that way...). Decided not to join the team for lunch, Ivan and me went to City Hall for lunch. Had Burger King for lunch and took a walk around Raffles City before heading back to office. =D

Initially, we jio-ed a couple of the DBS gers out this evening. However, due to some *unforeseen problems*... we decided to cancel the outing and met up with Kah Wai for dinner. We left the office at 6.30pm... had dinner at Marche... walked down to cuppage... played a few rounds of pool... went to NYDC to chill out (table 75). Feeling bad that we cancel the outing, we decided to meet up with them and waited till 11 plus for them.

Not knowing what to do, the gers suggested singing karaoke. The next available slot was at 1am so we waited for about 45 mins (Room 16). Shared a cab back home at 5.15am. Had a really great time today =D Tiring but enjoyable...

A Really Good Friday... =)

Today would be the best friday so far since I've started working at DBS. Happened to saw my buddy on the MRT when I board the train at Braddell, quite a rare chance considering the frequency and huge crowds of commuters in the morning.

The day passed quite slowly as I wasn't really focusing... After enduring the toilsome week of physical/mental work and emotional stress, its finally friday and I wasn't really in the mood to work. Was trying to implement an orchestration that can correlate messages, haiz, hopefully can get it working else I would be soooooo dead.

Around lunch time when Ivan and me was back from our toilet break, we bumped into Francis... We started to chat and asked if she is going for lunch. Realizing that she will be eating alone, she called up JL and asked her why she "pang seh" her.. In the end, she decided to meet JL at Lau Pa Sat for lunch and dragged us along. She was especially cute when she said "帮我留3个位子，还有那两个小弟弟" =)

Lunch was exceptionally good for once. The weather was great (slightly drizzling but very cooling), there weren't any fags tagging along, seats were already reserved for us and the best part is we get to lunch with Francis and JL together with a friend of JL. Both Francis and JL ordered 'Ban Mian' and she also treat us to drinks and "Guo Tie" JL looks cute when she tried to dip the Guo Tie in her soup and squeezing out the oil. Ha Ha...

Back in the office after lunch, Ivan took out his camera (Casio Ex Slim) and we started to take some candid shots. I think we created too much commotion and Francis... being kay-po as usual... popped in and asked us what we were doing. Thus we requested them to take pictures for us meantime grabbing the chance to take pics with them. Hee Hee... Below are some of the pictures. =Þ

One of the Best pic of My Buddy and me so far. =)

C'mon... Dun shy... give her a kiss... =Þ

Ivan, Jia Ling, Claudia, Me

Suppose to have some team celebration today, however, Guan Aik was on leave. As we were only informed around 6.30 and it was too late to plan anything. Not wanting to join them for drinks, Ivan and me went to one of the Japanese restaurant at International Plaza for dinner. Dinner was great! =D Although, most of the dishes were stuffs that I seldom eat, it was worth trying considering its recommendation from my buddy. Well, the food was really good and the ambience is great. Buddy, thanks for the treat! Really enjoyed the dinner... we ordered abit too much though... =Þ

Not knowing what to do after dinner, we walked around Juction 8 (to help digest the food too... ha ha) and I bought a cool blue Nalgene water bottle. Wanted to catch a movie titled "The Longest Yard"... but the timing of the show was 11.30pm. Well, something nice happen but I wun write it down cos it may seem abit funny... Anyway, just too bad, I've made the decision that its better we head home since there's not much we can do to kill time...

Gosh, Good stuffs. Yummy... =)

Bill from the dinner that my buddy treat me... =D

Finexis

Saturday:

Woke up slightly later than usual due to yesterday night activities... suffering from a slight headache, guessed it must have been hangover from too much alcohol the night before.

Agreed to meet Kelvin for lunch at 12 at Bugis, a buddy whom I knew during Army. He had agreed to do some financial planning review for me without forcing me to purchase any of the plans... =) We had our lunch at Food court before proceeding to his office. It was only then when I realized the location of Finexis building... The building had a gothic design with towering statues at strategic places and the lobby looks extremely majestic, (The building where 双天自尊 was filmed). We spoke for quite long... hmm about 1 1/2 hours cos he did a detailed review for me.

Decided to take a short walk at Sim Lim Square after the talk... walk around to kill time before heading home. =)

Scarlet Hotel

Last Friday was sort of different as compared to the past few. The afternoon passed painfully slow and I had to settle some financial loans with the Bank. There were some small issues and my colleagues were kind enough to help me and provided me with their opinions.

The project Manager of our team organised a dinner with the DBS team. It was scheduled at 7pm and the venue was Scarlet Hotel. When we reached there, the hotel wasn't what I expected it to be. I was expecting a sleazy place but it turns out to be an elegant boutique hotel. The place was lavishly decorated with a Scarlet/Red theme and furbished with epicurean furnitures. Seems like my buddy really like the place. As there wasn't enough sofas, I had to share with him. All was good until we were told to mingle and interact with the DBS staffs.

My boss told me to grasp the opportunity to know these people better to widen my network which could be useful in my career path. Thus, I relayed the message to my Buddy. However, its really awkard to communicate with them considering that they are my clients and there wasn't any common topic that I could think of. Hmm, I'm just not witty enough to hold a conversation with them. Moreover, I never really enjoyed social functions like these.

I dun really like to entertain these people cos I have to drink. I guessed I drank abit too fast on an empty stomache. The dinner was in the form of finger foods and wasn't really filling. Ivan was busy talking to the girls and the rest, Tin was entertaining the DBS people and I did not want to talk to Robin and Derrick. I was kinda lonely so I just kept quiet, enjoying the music and the atmosphere.

It was around 9 plus when we decided to make a move. They suggested catching a movie so we shared cabs to catch a late night movie at Cineleisure. We bought tickets for the 11.30pm show, titled "Must Love Dogs". (Fag Derrick still owe me the change for the movie tix) It was still early so the group decided to find a place for drinks. However, its tough to find seats for a group of 7. By the time we managed to get a place at NYDC, it was already 11pm.

The movie was great. We parted after the movie in 3 different cabs. Ivan, me, Esther and Claudia shared a cab home and thus we send the gers home first.

Clubbing

A week has passed, not a memorable one though. To be more precise, many unhappy incidents at the work place had made working really unpleasant. The work load is still mangeable, but some of the colleagues are creating additional stress on me. There is this fag that behaves totally like a auntie and likes to probe into other people's business. Life was so much better with only 4 of us before the Fag joined the team. The only good thing about my current job is that I have a great boss who happens to be a good old fren that really cares for me, and I have a great buddy working along with me. A friend whom I really... really treasure. =)

Went back to school in the afternoon with Ivan to collect our graduation cert. We took a 2 hours off after lunch. The trip back to Boon Lay was totally draining my energy... sadly we still have to return to the office. How I wish I can go back to studies... =(

Just when I thought life couldn't get any worse, the supposedly cancelled outing for tonight was scheduled into a drinking session. (Organised by a love-struck ger in the office who is making me paranoid). Haiz... We went to one of the pubs, "Equator Pub" located at Tanjong Pagar. Surprisingly, the drinking session turned out to be enjoyable. I had a really great time and it can be considered one of the best among all my clubbing trips. The mood, company and setting was all great. I was slightly high with the whisky in my blood, oblivious to the company of the bothersome duo (fag and feo). Being the first time going to the pub with my Buddy and to be able to hear him sing in public was probably the Best thing about the outing. Hee hee... =Þ

All was great until the trip back home. There were 5 of us and we had some slight issues regarding the splitting of cabs. Damn retards can't give ideas ended up me pissing my buddy, Its upsetting to end the night with a bad note. Haiz... Fortunately, everything was fine and the hilarious thing was the dumb feos mistaken that Ivan was interested in one of them and wanted to send her back home. Bwahahaha...

Really wish to write in details but getting dopey. Time to sleep... Zzz