Can't Sleep

Its almost 5am as I'm writing this post... woke up once earlier... Tried to sleep but I just couldn't. Interruption of sleep for these 2 days is wearing me out.

Its been two years since Alvin left me (A very close friend whom Marilyn and me... miss dearly even till now...) Getting by the days without him were hard... especially those days when I had to concentrate on my studies and exams.

Somehow, the same feeling of loss has creeped backed into me. A very good friendship fortified for more than two years was screwed by me. A friendship where we can talk about everything, a friend whom I used to chat online every night, someone whom I can act and share my thoughts freely is not there and too tired to care anymore. All these due to my pettiness... coming to realize and reminded of what Marilyn has once told me before... "The higher the expectations, the greater the dissapointment"... Well, I guessed I had too much expectations that I was controlling too much. I've learnt a huge lesson this time... just hope things will get better...

I dun ask for anything now... except 'Sleep'... so tired but just can't sleep...