Haiz, Black Monday...

Is happiness always short-lived? I guess that's pretty much depends on each individual and their expectations. What each person looks forward to and their demands... I was really wishing to be happy throughout the year...

Maybe I'm over senstitive or I'm simply too dumb to know what's going on. I seriously dun noe what I've done again...

Another sad event that happened today was a ger that liked me came to know the truth that I didn't like her and I was trying to minimize contact with her. Haiz, I did a mean thing on sunday night. I was sharing a cab with this ger and I chosed to sit in front leaving her at the back... Yes, she was damn pissed with me. Its indeed very bad of me to do that... but I also dun noe what came over me. What's done has already been done and no amount of regrets will make the situation better. I could have handled the situation better but I screwed it up. Haiz, why must such things happen!?

Today is a really bad day and I still have to face such stuffs again.

Haiz...

Happy Happy Birthday (In Progress)

Sunday
A day of joy and fun spiced with series of events and unexpected surprises... only to be spoilt

Sad September

A series of unhappy events seems to be popping up now and then... especially so in the recent weeks. So tired and exhausted that I really feel like setting upon a death curse upon myself on my birthday.

Too tired to elaborate what happened and had no wish to jot unhappy memories down into my blog. But ever been accused of something that you did not do or was not aware of..? and trying hard to salvage the situation when you are already depressed yet to no avail...? It don't feel good.

Tried as I may, I always prioritize my friends even before myself, giving the best that I could, be there for them, building the trust in the friendship, hoping for some appreciation...

Nobody asked me to do these stuffs!

Nobody...

Tried too hard..?

Yes.

No such people exists?

Well, I'm one example... Though its my character... but I guessed I deserve it when I suffer. Nobody's to be blamed except myself.

Haiz, So tired... shall try go and sleep... Sharing the lyrics of a song with a sad story that I really really liked...

Breaking my Heart

I’m on the floor
Counting one minute more
No one to break the silence

Staring into the night
All alone but that’s alright
It’s the feeling deep inside I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
Counting the words you’ve said
They linger in the shadows

Coming home late at night
Drunk again but that’s alright
It’s the look in your eyes I don’t like

There is no excuse my friend
For breaking my heart
Breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Party World KTV / Harbour Front

Thursday

Went for KTV again... this time round with Ivan, Jia Lin and Claudia. Since both girls needed to attend classes till 10pm, we made reservation for a room around that time. Bro initially had some class outing today... but was cancelled due to poor attendance and douches flying kites. Well, at least now I have company for dinner at the Food Court in Scotts. =D We walked from Far East to Isetan to Taka... to Paragon and then to Heeren just to kill time and practically tire ourselves out before the singing. =S

The booking was 4 hours and we sang till 2am. It was enjoyable and fun getting to hear Jia Lin and Ivan sing. =) They are all so...so much better as compared to me. Ever heard of frogs croaking..? Well, that's me... ha ha... Must brush up my singing skills man. Before the 4 hours were up, I was already limping in the couch battling against the Z-Monster. Damn shaq... and we still have to work tomorrow... argh! Shared a cab back home... first to JL's then Claudia's house.

Friday

Boss on leave today. I was practically making trips the whole day to the server room trying to perform installation onto the new server. It was only near the end of the day did I realize that the harddisk space for the new server was only 10GB. =S

Very soon, it was lunch time. Francis wanted to get a Pool table for her new house... so we made a trip down to "Big" located at Harbour Front. As the name suggested, its a mega store selling wide variety of household stuffs ranging from appliances to furnitures and decorations for homes. Had lunch at the Food Court before heading back to office... If only everyday could be as slack as today, guess it would make working more enjoyable and fun. Ha ha =Þ No activities for the night as the past two days has totally drained us out. Had dinner at United Square, a drink at Coffee Bean (Junction 8) with my buddy before heading back home. =)

Met Kelvin at night cos he jio-ed me out for supper at around 10.45pm. He drove me to one of the hawker at Lorong 5... Chat for a while before heading home.

Here are some pics taken on friday... Thanks to Ivan and his pro camera. =D

Sunday

Its Mid-Autumn Festival today... but sadly, nobody to 'celebrate' and play lanterns with. Well, I'm getting too old for that too... =) Somehow, the day seems to be unexpectedly short... Played a few games of DotA with my buddy throughout the day =) ... before heading to my grandma's house in the evening.

So tired... not enough sleep since last week.

Can't Sleep

Its almost 5am as I'm writing this post... woke up once earlier... Tried to sleep but I just couldn't. Interruption of sleep for these 2 days is wearing me out.

Its been two years since Alvin left me (A very close friend whom Marilyn and me... miss dearly even till now...) Getting by the days without him were hard... especially those days when I had to concentrate on my studies and exams.

Somehow, the same feeling of loss has creeped backed into me. A very good friendship fortified for more than two years was screwed by me. A friendship where we can talk about everything, a friend whom I used to chat online every night, someone whom I can act and share my thoughts freely is not there and too tired to care anymore. All these due to my pettiness... coming to realize and reminded of what Marilyn has once told me before... "The higher the expectations, the greater the dissapointment"... Well, I guessed I had too much expectations that I was controlling too much. I've learnt a huge lesson this time... just hope things will get better...

I dun ask for anything now... except 'Sleep'... so tired but just can't sleep...

Party World KTV

Got back very very early this morning... Reached home at about 5.50am after a 4 hours KTV session at Party World KTV Orchard.

Friday

1 week has passed since the official implementation date of the project. The hours spent in the office during the day was generally the same composing of frequent breaks, chatting, printing and of course... WORKING. Ivan brought some chocolate dipped strawberries to offer the gers in DBS. Friday is always a great day and is generally more relax (well, at least I feel that way...). Decided not to join the team for lunch, Ivan and me went to City Hall for lunch. Had Burger King for lunch and took a walk around Raffles City before heading back to office. =D

Initially, we jio-ed a couple of the DBS gers out this evening. However, due to some *unforeseen problems*... we decided to cancel the outing and met up with Kah Wai for dinner. We left the office at 6.30pm... had dinner at Marche... walked down to cuppage... played a few rounds of pool... went to NYDC to chill out (table 75). Feeling bad that we cancel the outing, we decided to meet up with them and waited till 11 plus for them.

Not knowing what to do, the gers suggested singing karaoke. The next available slot was at 1am so we waited for about 45 mins (Room 16). Shared a cab back home at 5.15am. Had a really great time today =D Tiring but enjoyable...

A Really Good Friday... =)

Today would be the best friday so far since I've started working at DBS. Happened to saw my buddy on the MRT when I board the train at Braddell, quite a rare chance considering the frequency and huge crowds of commuters in the morning.

The day passed quite slowly as I wasn't really focusing... After enduring the toilsome week of physical/mental work and emotional stress, its finally friday and I wasn't really in the mood to work. Was trying to implement an orchestration that can correlate messages, haiz, hopefully can get it working else I would be soooooo dead.

Around lunch time when Ivan and me was back from our toilet break, we bumped into Francis... We started to chat and asked if she is going for lunch. Realizing that she will be eating alone, she called up JL and asked her why she "pang seh" her.. In the end, she decided to meet JL at Lau Pa Sat for lunch and dragged us along. She was especially cute when she said "帮我留3个位子，还有那两个小弟弟" =)

Lunch was exceptionally good for once. The weather was great (slightly drizzling but very cooling), there weren't any fags tagging along, seats were already reserved for us and the best part is we get to lunch with Francis and JL together with a friend of JL. Both Francis and JL ordered 'Ban Mian' and she also treat us to drinks and "Guo Tie" JL looks cute when she tried to dip the Guo Tie in her soup and squeezing out the oil. Ha Ha...

Back in the office after lunch, Ivan took out his camera (Casio Ex Slim) and we started to take some candid shots. I think we created too much commotion and Francis... being kay-po as usual... popped in and asked us what we were doing. Thus we requested them to take pictures for us meantime grabbing the chance to take pics with them. Hee Hee... Below are some of the pictures. =Þ

One of the Best pic of My Buddy and me so far. =)

C'mon... Dun shy... give her a kiss... =Þ

Ivan, Jia Ling, Claudia, Me

Suppose to have some team celebration today, however, Guan Aik was on leave. As we were only informed around 6.30 and it was too late to plan anything. Not wanting to join them for drinks, Ivan and me went to one of the Japanese restaurant at International Plaza for dinner. Dinner was great! =D Although, most of the dishes were stuffs that I seldom eat, it was worth trying considering its recommendation from my buddy. Well, the food was really good and the ambience is great. Buddy, thanks for the treat! Really enjoyed the dinner... we ordered abit too much though... =Þ

Not knowing what to do after dinner, we walked around Juction 8 (to help digest the food too... ha ha) and I bought a cool blue Nalgene water bottle. Wanted to catch a movie titled "The Longest Yard"... but the timing of the show was 11.30pm. Well, something nice happen but I wun write it down cos it may seem abit funny... Anyway, just too bad, I've made the decision that its better we head home since there's not much we can do to kill time...

Gosh, Good stuffs. Yummy... =)

Bill from the dinner that my buddy treat me... =D